It must be in keeping with the aging trend but I find myself sleeping less. I fall asleep ok but I find myself prematurely waking and most of the time not really getting back to sleep. An alternative Alex Jones theory of tinnitus: maybe we can simply hear things other folks can't hear. While others may enjoy their joblessness it has a weird effect on me. It brings to the fore any depressive issues that may exist and when you're past the half-century mark you think alot more about your own mortality. Life really is short and tortoises live alot longer than man. Also when you get older you start taking the issue of hell more seriously, at least I do but I was raised Catholic and it never really leaves you. I've blogged about this before, I actually don't like work but I also don't like being out of work if that makes any sense.
I was raised Catholic too and no, it never really leaves you.
ReplyDeleteI wish I could do something more than send good thoughts and that I'm sorry nothing's come up yet. I tell my students that the right job will come along at the exact moment they're ready for it... it doesn't seem like that advice is going to work in this situation.
And maybe you do hear things the rest of us can't.
I'm working next week on a part-time basis. Trying valerian root right now for the tinnitus.
ReplyDeleteAs a cat owner, it is interesting to note that-
ReplyDelete"An unusual feature of valerian is that valerian root and leaves are a cat attractant similar to, and as safe as, catnip. Valerian contains the cat attractant actinidine. Cat attractants might mimic the odor of cat urine which is caused by 3-mercapto-3-methylbutan-1-ol." In other words,
your kitty may respond differently to your breath.
I've done the valerian many times with cats now. Sometimes it's even better
DeleteCongratulations on getting the work!
ReplyDeleteWe not that the Trumpster is unpopular in the UK ,
ReplyDeletethat Cruz blames Obama for freeing US citizens from Iran and the stock market blames cheap $30/barrel oil. Best ongoing comedy series so far this year.
Seriously how can there be people (I see the memes on FB) who still claim that Obama is destroying the country? Are they deluded... do they actually believe that? Or are they just trying to delude others? Is it a Republican conspiracy to mislead the masses? I also saw a meme about how Hillary is going to repeal the Second Amendment. Low information is not quite a strong enough word for some of this stuff, but it disturbs me to find it even exists.
ReplyDeleteSo, how's the new job?
ReplyDeleteThere's a very long orientation/training program but it's interesting.
ReplyDeleteThat's a good sign, it means they invest in their employees. We are all about to get hit with this storm and so I am spending the next couple days at work. I see on the weather channel that they really can't predict what will happen to you in Westchester, anywhere from 4 to 14. Lucky for a lot of people this is hitting on a weekend but that doesn't mean much in my job. So hopefully for us and for you it won't be so bad, but I'm not betting on it. I think this one will be a doozy.
ReplyDeleteHow many snowplows they got in Yonkers?
ReplyDeleteDunno but this was far worse than I thought it would be. I was thinking 12" and we got over two feet easy.
ReplyDeleteIf ya had some snow shoes, you could wander about and
Deletefind Jim Cantore.
According to astronomers, gravimetic perturbations in the Kuiper Belt suggest the presence of a large phantom planet orbiting the sun every 15,000 years. If they can locate the object, any suggestions for
ReplyDeletenaming it?
Haven't come up with anything yet. Colonos?
DeleteSometimes you get a job through a favor, somebody pulls strings. The person is basically a good person, will probably go straight to heaven but the big drawback, on the downside what if it turns out you have mixed feelings about the job or it's not a good fit for you? Then to extricate yourself you really in effect cancel out the favor. In the final analysis I believe in doing your own thing, going your own way but it's one of those things.
ReplyDeleteI also don't think if a person has never had it that he can relate to the suffering of tinnitus just like if a person has never had depression or anxiety or insomnia or what have you then they can't relate to that either. Whether any of these things rise to the level of a disability is a gray area like with the tinnitus I have my good days and my bad days. I have a philosophical aunt who makes sense. She said what's wrong with trying a job and leaving if it's not for you or simply taking some downtime. The American work ethic dictates you have to work constantly until it's your time to retire and watch Westerns.
ReplyDeleteThere is the matter of paying the bills. Saw an old acquaintance yesterday, the one who got himself disability and now has the time to be a Tea Party leader. He was a bit
ReplyDeleteshell-shocked over Trump. What does your Aunt say about the
tinnitus? Maybe it is stress related and you should try a few weeks immersed in what really interests you? Jobwise, I
didn't find a perfect fit until I was almost 40, and suspect that many, maybe even most, work away at some job
that bores them, or they hate, or the coworkers and mgt grate.
The bills force you to work yes. Haven't asked my aunt about the tinnitus but I just dropped ibuprofen. Stress? could be but it's fairly constant even in times of low stress.
ReplyDeleteTinnitus is pretty wide spread and the symptoms range from
ReplyDeleteminor irritation to practically debilitating. So, your Dr.
should be more interested in fixing your problem. Meanwhile
the latest research involves tone therapy which is supposed to
'retrain' the ear/brain system as well as a promising drug
called furosemide which has cured
guinea pigs of their tinnitus. The are looking for humans now to test it on for verification. You might try volunteering, as your colon would not be involved. :)
Overall my tinnitus I would rate as at least leaning towards practically debilitating if not catastrophic on some days so my frustration comes from the subject of disability never comes up. Feedback loops, you'd think it would eventually burn itself out no?
ReplyDeleteIs the tinnitus in one ear, or both?
ReplyDeleteBoth although for some time the sound is on one side and later on the other. It's a sound not so much in the head but above and off to the sides, vibrating and pulsating.
ReplyDeleteWe presume you have done a lot of searching for causes, but
ReplyDeletesuggest going over your own
self diagnosis as would a physician. Have you had an auditory
exam, for example, or neck injury, causative disease, family history, TMJ etc? You may have to dig, come up with
a list and take it in to the scoffing MD, ya know?
Hillary Clinton is a lying, lecherous Leftists who cannot be trusted.
ReplyDeleteIn fact here is a list of things that I trust more than Hillary!
Drinking Mexican tap water
A rattlesnake with a pet me sign
Bill Clinton
OJ Simpson showing me his knife collection
An elevator ride with Ray Rice
A drink offered by Bill Cosby
Michael Jackson’s doctor
An Obama nuclear deal with Iran
A Palestinian with a backpack on a motorcycle
Gas station sushi
Jimmy Carter’s economic plan
Brian Williams’ news reports
Loch Ness monster sightings
Prayers for peace from Al Sharpton
An Obama endorsement
Rosie O showing restraint at an all-you-can-eat buffet
German co-pilots
Nigerian lottos wins
The $35,000,000 arab shiek who keeps sending me emails
Mexican building codes
Duke strippers
Chicago governors
Sasquatch:)
ReplyDeleteD.T.T.R.C. gave me tinnitus. Yikes!
ReplyDeleteThen maybe this will finnish you off?
DeleteMadam Hillary Clinton by far, the most annoying voice ever heard coming from a Presidential Candidate. Maybe thats why no one wants to go to her rallies?
Probably, for many of us, she sounds like one of our "Angry/Bitching Relatives", right?
Maybe someones Mother In Law from Hell? The voice of a Howler monkey is more pleasant than hers.
So what does Hillary sound like to you? Maybe your brakes as they were on their last leg before you tailgated a bus? Maybe for some of us, Hillary sounds like an annoying 70 year old waiter that gave you the worst restaurant experience? What about a pet? wild animal? Maybe a parrot? old cat? Or Godzilla with the flu?
Or some one in the toilet after a long night of eating Mexican food.
Since it's back to the old grind I was pondering who invented work since it consumes so much of our lives. I mean it's not like when God created the race He said you have to work, you have to have a monetary system, you have to pull a 9-5 everyday.
ReplyDeleteLike most of the animal kingom, we humans have some
Deletebasic needs:
List of basic human survival needs:
1.Oxygen
2.Water
3.Food
4.Shelter
5.Sleep
-and we note that 1,2,5 are fairly easy. Three and four came under the 'hunter-gather' paradigm for eons, but modern society constricts us to more specialization and social density. Long story short:
you have to pay for stuff. But, God did recommend a
weekly day of rest.
On the other hand most of us instinctively know we're living by someone else's rules so there's an unhappiness that nags at us.
DeleteYou could try the hermit route. You know, change your blog name to 'Stranded Outside Civilization :)
DeleteIf I lost a few more pounds and firmed up the abs I could become one of them underwear models.
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